Untitled III

I saw my face reflected
In the puddle
It’s snowing now; I look up-
Death’s all over the rubble

Eid went by without
My mother and father,
My eyes dried up- no tears
Even for my big brother

They gave me few
Books and a pen,
School’s starting, they
Told me- all over again

My new best friend
Died yesterday,
Injured- he lost the battle
With life, yesterday

How will I focus, now?
How will I study?
A beginning, so soon
But am not yet ready…

I see an orange ball setting
Down the horizon,
I see rays of hope
Emitting from the sun…

No days are passed by
Without us being tested,
God’s Great- no doubt, He has
Better Plans (for us) invested

Forgive me, my Lord
I am all but five,
Fighting with death- an
Ordeal did I survive?...

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Untitled - I

Where is my mother ?
I haven't seen her
inthe last few days,
I am all surroundedby haze...
I cannot find her,
gone- she is they told me,
she may be lost forever...

where's my father ?
we've not been to
the prayers together-
so long...I miss him, too
it's so cold out here
and am all black & blue...

where's my brother ?
we haven't played
for so long -
I miss sleeping with him...
to another World
doeshe too belong ?

No family I have now,
am all on my own...
am scared to death now
the childhood, I have
not outgrown...
I only wish they were with me..
God- Help me please..
make me at peace
with the pain from now on...

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Untitled - II

No one to look after
me - am all alone
I do have a caretaker,
but no one of my own
I step out when
the rain stops
and look around
'til my eyelid drops
I am out all night and day
don't know for how
long is my stay
no laughter there
is left now
only cries of pain,
hollow faces stare
at you now-
asking for help all again...

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Who am I ?

I read this somewhere, about a girl
Who grew up too soon and time just passed by;
She knew not of the years that affected the outside
But her world stood built on the echoes of who am I?
She’d get up early in the mornings in search of peace
And ask questions from anybody who’d caught her eye.
Once, she dreamt about a Code- that changed her life;
She woke up breathless and bewildered, ‘my, o’ my!’
She uttered, ‘what was that; a key to all my questions?
Was it me or the whole world that I saw deceive and lie?’
Now she had a key that could answer her inquisitive mind,
She prayed for tranquility- for a source that could satisfy.
She had the Code with her, and she never realized
And now that she did, she kissed others good-bye!
She immersed herself in knowing the Truth, seeking
To quench her thirst for good, to know the real ‘I’;
She was on a road to self healing with the Help from
The One- she’d soon have answers for ‘how’ and ‘why’.
She learnt about her origin and her humble beginning;
It was common to all, the forte of the Most High.
It’s His Concern to whom He Wishes to give and take away
From another; ask Him and He may even give you the sky!
She read, and read- tears streaming down her cheeks,
She clenched the Code tightly, and heaved a sigh.

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Henna

I've henna on my hand,
The design like a fertile land
Leaves a fulfilled impression;
My palm tingles with an expression
Of joy and a childish glee-
Is it the red henna or the inner me
Smelling sweet like flowers bloomed,
Down goes worries and out the gloom.
The henna is in its full splendor,
Displaying the vivid dark color
For me to inhale the merriment-
This henna is filled with contentment.

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Past Revisited...

Sunday, May 23, 2004

Whenever I see the sky
I see it is filled with the color of life;
Whenever I think about life
I feel a particular uncertainty to it;
Whenever I brood over the uncertainties
I skip my daily dose of freshness;
Whenever I stop to inhale the freshness
I am reminded of the gloom surrounding me;
Whenever I try to clear away that gloom
I am pushed down by the difficulties;
Whenever I put aside these difficulties
I am swept away by the never-ending questions;
Whenever I ponder over these questions
I look up high in the sky, and
Whenever I see the sky...

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I know I am beautiful...

8/3/05
9:36 am

I know I am beautiful, ‘cause
My beauty comes from within.
I don’t need to dress up to kill;
Neither show any of my skin.
What is hidden, remains so
What can’t be – remains unseen.
I am neither backward nor am I
Suppressed- I am immune to fallin’
Into acts of human disgrace.
What’s been labeled freedom-
For me it’s a step back in
Time; women were treated
As inferior to men and nothin’
Has changed for the tainted minds. Come
On ladies, show your worth, endin’
Years of society’s desperate attempts.
What I said, I stand by it – spreadin’
All over the Truth. So, pay an ear to
This, as what’s been said is nothin’
But the noble Words of your Lord;
Covering up is one such thing
We, womenfolk, should follow;
It safeguards our honor, keepin’
Corrupted ones away. Alhamdulillah –
All praise to Allah, The All- Knowing
One; He created us all as one
And equal human beings.

10/3/05
12:44 pm


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...My Diary Says...

An eye for an eye
Is what they say;
An eye for an eye
Some might obey;
An eye for an eye
Is a tragedy;
An eye for an eye -
Alas, is here to stay !

[ October '04 ]

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I am a Bird...

I am a bird, hear me fly
High above you, up in the sky
Look at not my wings but my speed
Embodying courage, I am free indeed !


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' With us or Against us...'

What is the quickest way of disintegrating someone's beliefs ?
Attack his honor and dignity...
How to carry it out ?
...Attack the lady of his house,
Ermm...what if we face resistance ?
Crush it, either by hook or by crook
Any alternative ?
Yea..feed him your stuff, coax him into listening to you - deal softly and then strike when the iron's hot, if not then just overpower him with might ...he's bound to listen to you and follow you like a pooch
What about the 'friendly neighbors', think they'll be of any help ?
Hmm...to an extent perhaps, funny how some of them are still staunch believers at heart....such ninnies ! so much for secularism, uh !
But, Sam, What about the whole 'community', won't they come to know about this offensive?
What offensive are u talking about ?? we are doing this for our own betterment, Brit... you are with us or against us, that's what matters..As for the 'community', don't worry, they are just puppets waiting for the strings to be drawn !
Is it so ?
Yea, mate...proven time and again !

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From My Diary...

[April '04]

Waiting in the dark
waiting forever;

Praying fervently
Praying forver;

Asking for love,
Asking for mercy,
Asking forgiveness
From God - The Eternal !

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Nature's Fury...

Nature's fury:
Scorned over me
Lashing at me
Weakening me
Destroying me...

Nature's anger:
Hath no answer
Chaos forever -
Creating disorder.

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Have you ever tried to Tell the Truth ?

Have you ever tried to tell the truth?
It’s hard telling it, and
Much more difficult not saying it!
So, what to do?
Should you forget about it, or
Should you try uttering it?
What next then?
Give the truth a thought;
Is it worth saying, or
You can live without it?
Up next, try to be more practical;
Is the truth really a truth, and
Not merely a speculation?
Hmm, now that’s a
Confusing truth!

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...Moonlight...

Dark and Cold night
Shimmering in the moonlight
Waiting for you to appear
I waited for you, my dear !

No one, but no one else in your place
Is what my heart always says
Just you and me, together
Today, tomorrow and forever

But, time doesn't seem to be on my side
That's why my soul's acting so wild
Running in the cold
There's nothing that I could hold

Shivering in the cold night
I think again about the moonlight
Why is that it always appear
When there's nothing to remember, my dear ?

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Quotable Qoutes...

Life is like an unopened book; once opened always read !

There is no such thing as a Secret, had there been one - you wouldn't have cried infront of God asking for help without even uttering a word !

Life is a game - if you solve the middle you come out victorious.

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Let Me Be

I am restless; curb me, please
I am senseless; fill me in
Barren thoughts; not a clue
Ever in dilemma; what to do?
Antagonistic; sometimes numb
Insatiable; quest for truth
Vague; all those views
Hardship; help me, please
Test; never at ease
Hope; always looking for
Heart; forever searching for
Tongue; mine displease
(So, forgive me please!)
Reaching; out to You
Working; to please You
O’ My Lord - hear my plea
Content - let me be!

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Shivers ran down my spine !

When your heart beats faster
And you start trembling;
That, my brother, is a sign
From The One, of prosperity
And happiness in this world
And the next- sure brother,
You have chosen a path that’s
The very best. When you hear
His Name, you go down on your
Knees, you weep and moan, and
Seek repentance, ‘please oh
Please forgive me, my Lord, I am your
Servant and You are my Master;
You hold the key to my pleasure’
When you see signs of Him all
Around you, there are few things
You can do, praise Him for making
You such, and thank Him for
Blessing you with so much.
Remember, brother, this world
Will end unlike the ‘other one’;
Make sure you do the right thing
When you get the hint of
Shivers running down your spine.

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The Blue Sky

15/6/04
9:30 p.m.

Gazing down upon us is the blue sky,
Whose companionship with the clouds;
Remind me of a brilliant expression.
The white and blue: signs of freedom;
The brightness: a hope of what’s yet to come.
But, the sky’s so high…and so are the clouds;
I don’t know why, but I am surrounded by doubts.
What if the price of freedom goes sky high?
And, what if, the hope turns into dismay?...

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Thank You

9:50 pm / 30-6-04


We are his pride, and
He is our strength;
We are incompetent
Without him, and
He is incomplete without
Any of us. We look upon him
As a source of inspiration, and
Learn from him anything
Of importance. It's true that
Words fall short to describe
The love and gratitude we feel
For him, but then we love him a lot,
And will always be indebted to him
For all that he has done for us.
So, dear Papa, thank you
For everything!

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An unborn baby's letter to its mother :

Dear Mama,

When stars shine, remember me. When moon glows, remember me. Whenever you look up in the sky, remember that I am waiting for you to call upon me. Dearest mama, remember that even though I am inside you, I want to be cuddled in the same warmth as that of a baby born. My lovely mama, how can I convey my true feelings to you that never for one moment leave me unattended, even after my birth. I love you mama dearly for what you have done for me and I am not sure if I can ever repay you.

But mama, I am scared. I am afraid of being neglected. I don’t want to be ignored. I just want you to be by my side – everyday and every where. I am afraid of being left behind. I want to feel you. I want you to touch me and talk to me. I like it when you do so now, and believe me dear mama, I would love it when you’d continue doing it. Please, oh please mama, don’t leave me at somebody else’s doorsteps; don't leave me at some one else's mercy. Just hold me close like now, when I am much closer to you then anything else.

So mama, when you look up at the creations of God and admire them, remember that I, too, am a creation of God. So admire and look after me. With lots of love and affection mama, remember me.

Your Baby.

P.S. – I Love You!

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